Mom I haven't figured out how to move on Feeling empty and cold with you gone Mom Us against the world was all we ever knew How to push through, I really have no clue She fought so hard and struggled so long Gone in a blink, the end of her life song A lifetime of pain, no hope for her future Family she loved hope painted that picture Mom A haunted past and heart filled with grief Burdens of shame with no chance of relief Mom She tried to guide us knowing she was lost We too became broken, heavy was the cost Growing up under the banner of tough love What would life be without a little shove? I know she tried to help us see the good With hardened heart did the best she could Mom Never had much but she gave us enough Showed us life was good even when tough Mom Lessons she taught helped us to survive Life's a bitch but at least we're still alive I grew up got away and we grew apart Found my own family, rough from the start Cycles we break and some we perpetuate Falling short for those we love is our fate Just like mom I will always do my best The example she set is my litmus test Soul is empty since the day of her death I perceive her truths more in each breath My hope is now you've found A place both happy and free A place of peace And from your worries to let you be I can't bear the thought That you're just food for the worms Lifetime of pain before death Far less than you deserved Mom I haven't figured out how to move on