I've got a 2022 Lia state of mind Cherry lipstick stains Tattoos and red wine Dark blue ink on blank paper A little black dress and brown leather A half-smoked cigarette in the ashtray Vinyl heels and dark painted nails I've got a broken pen and pouring rain To help me exorcise all this pain I've got enough ghosts to know by now They always always come back around I must admit I've let my guard down He's just a man who's got passed the hounds You held the key Brought me back to crazy How I've missed being me You held the key Brought me back to crazy That's why they call me Malice Vice takes practice Not a word can be said I just hold it in my chest 'Til my heart meets the bullet You taste you taste Not a word can be said I just hold it in my chest It's not soon to fade You taste like a lavender lemonade Your eyes like whispers pull me in A fleeting truth beneath my skin I carry the weight of what could be Lost in the ways of your mystery I bloom in the dark soft and strange You're the calm and the chaos I can't estrange I'd drown in your sweetness despite the pain Like lavender dreams in a summer rain My god I used to love A white t-shirt Tonic and gin It was bitter but I kept on sipping What were the odds? Now he's gone Vanilla rum-liquor blue jeans I'm still a purple queen Not a word can be said I just hold it in my chest 'Til my heart meets the bullet You taste you taste Not a word can be said I just hold it in my chest It's not soon to fade You taste like a lavender lemonade Boy oh boy I've been here before I know they always come back for more Can't the both of you at least fight for me? I mean I try not to take all of this seriously 'Cause I almost died for less than this you see Can't a girl be fatale in peace? Can't a girl be fatale and please? Almost died for less than this see Can't a girl be fatale in peace? Not a word can be said I just hold it in my chest 'Til my heart meets the bullet You taste you taste Not a word can be said I just hold it in my chest It's not soon to fade You taste like a lavender lemonade